The tagline of my blog is "the beautiful dichotomy of a classic-minded millennial mom." This was the easiest way I could describe my life to you in one sentence. The Beautiful Dichotomy is what I call the internal struggle (the Mom Guilt?) of balancing home life & work. None of us just do one thing - even if you are a stay-at-home-mom or a full-time-working-mom with a nanny. We all live in our own dichotomy. Sometimes we forget to call it beautiful, but if we work where we are called & we love where we are placed, then it is just that - Beautiful.
Did you mommas find that the first few weeks of your pregnancy felt oddly surreal? As pumped as I was to be pregnant, I had a hard time grasping the reality of it until that first ultrasound & it got super real when I started showing! When we found out that not only was their a little soul inside of me, but that he was a little boy, I felt like we had been literally introduced. We named him & saw that his profile kind of looked like ours. I couldn't wait to get to know him. I found myself doing these things & once he was born I realized that we had already bonded. That baby is getting to know your voice, your smell, your way of walking. Baby bonding is a real thing & hopefully these things can help your pregnancy be even sweeter!
Who better to teach us about the Creator of the universe than a newborn baby? There is no one better because there is no one more pure, completely untouched by the cares or dirt of the world. I think a child is the closest thing to an angel that we will behold until we stand with Jesus in heaven.
They are given to us on handouts from the pediatrician. They are documented on every mother's news feed. They are somewhat ambiguous, yet constantly in the back of all of our minds as our little ones grow. They are developmental milestones.
I didn't even know people cloth diapered their babies anymore until one of our moms brought their toddler to the clinic with the cutest little bum I've ever seen! I stared wide-eyed as she explained what a cloth diaper was & how much she loved doing it. Through my plastered smile, I nicely explained that it felt like a little too much for me to consider as a new mom; some things are just easier to pay for & throw away right? Then J & I sat down to look at the ever-thinning margin in our budget after a move, new house, student loans, impending child & lessening income. I realized I had to become that Home Economist Dave Ramsey talked about, so I got creative. One of the more ambitious endeavors (& the most difficult to talk my husband into) was cloth diapering...
There is one thing I HATE about my job: telling parents that the positioning devices they paid good money for - or worse, received FOR FREE - are actually not good for their child. At all. It's actually bad for their development. I hate telling them this because I understand how much time it takes to put together a registry & all the pressure there is to have all the right things for your little love. Plus, I'm sure it's confusing to see ads with those adorable babies standing in their exercise saucer, looking perfectly content while Mommy cooks dinner (oh, the bliss), & then to be told that this miracle device gives your little one a good chance to be developmentally stunted. I'm telling you, it's like popping a kid's balloon.
J & I always knew that I wouldn't work full time once we had kids. However, by the time we got there, we had an exorbitant amount in student loans! I also battled feelings of guilt for not "using my degree" - like the amount of time I work dictates the importance of my degree - & then feelings of entitlement that I should be able to do what I want since I survived PT school! Ultimately, I had to go back to the desires of my heart, that longing placed there by God. Because that's the only plan that will work. And He has orchestrated it perfectly, as He always will when we give it over to Him! We still, however, have the responsibility to be a good steward with what He has given us. So I made a point of challenging myself to save as much as possible during my pregnancy...
I write this post more from the perspective of a daughter than a momma. I write this post in honor of the end of my maternity leave. I'm only going back two days a week, but it's still a big deal for me! My work situation is unique - I actually work for my mom!... Continue Reading →